Friday, April 27, 2007
THE EMO HAS TO STOP.
.
#1 reason to be emo:
anyways, the syf-mood is still in the air. and as much as i'll like to talk about it, (cause cj dance did such a swell job :D ) it just reminds me of that opportunity that i MISSED. but then, if i DID syf in the end, i wont be in cj, but in someplace else... maybe with a gold with honours in my pocket, in dance there, and on good terms with zaki. but i still prefer to see myself in cj, in cjdance... without a gold with honours in my pocket, without a jc syf record, and maybe still on bad terms with zaki?
I DONT KNOW.
but perhaps i'm just happier like that?
well, all i know it's GOD's plan.
for everything!
ultimately, it was true that i didnt expect it myself to be in cj. and not ready for another rd of syf.
maybe i'm just not made to dance that much.
I DONT KNOW.
#2 reason to be emo:
after meeting joce, pinks and ele ytd, i realised how much i missed jc life. it's like when i suddenly left sch, it seemed like im so detached from the WORLD. separated from having a nice social life?? GRRRR. from what seems to be normal.. seeing your friends practically everyday of your cj life... to something scary like, only seeing them like once a months, or not even seeing them!
to the ppl STILL in jc, pls treasure your time in sch cause it's really short! and you wont realise it only until youre out of it. but then, even when you want to see your friends, all in sch uniform again, you know that this wish can never come true again.
GOSH, thats EMO.
but i guess we all missed school terribly :(
but on a happier note,
THEY'RE ALL COMING BACK
those evil buggers (:
dancin' @ 12:42 AM
Thursday, April 26, 2007
promised to keep this entry short today :D
i had an AWESOME time catching up with joce,ele and pinks today (: but i'll keep the details for later cause this entry's for this:
CJ DANCE!
winning syf team
it's the feeling of soaring while dancing that sets you apart.
you guys really want it huh (:
BURNT THE FLOOR
sizzle sizzle (:
they are good. period.
dont know. i just feel that after watching the dance, you just want to savour the moment, the emotion, all over again (: but nth beats watching it for the first time! brink of tears i tell you. with very minimal bias-ness
and you'll watch nothing more
but JUST THAT DANCE.
CJC syf, firefly -clarence's shaky hands laa. enjoy anyways (:
dancin' @ 12:51 AM
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
if i could ask God just one qn.
why arent you here with me
tonight?
i had the giggly instructor again for driving today! and apparently, im always driving TOO fast at turnings, at small roads! so i was a real traffic hazard today. HAHA. elena small, siao driver (:
then, i went brasbasah, and i surprisingly went there myself without getting lost! OH YAY (see sherman, it was you the other time!) fun, crazy time with buru ppl (: isaac you tall person.
and then, i think i made good progress in my lesson with shifu ngoh today? yayyy rejoice!
this is coming WAY TOO LATE BUT..
SYF IS TOMORROW!!
ALL THE BEST CJ DANCERSSS!!
all my sweet sweet juniors! (((:
dance farewell 06.. dear juniors (:
feels great to have all you hunks and babes to carry on and earn another GOLD for cj! (:
still, it doesnt take a single gold or a single thing, to already start feeling proud of you ppl.
GO DANCERS!
BURN THE FLOOR!
soar like fireflies :S
to dance in that very studio, with that bunch of very special people (:
yay yay im meeting the dancers and joce tomorrow! but i feel like going to the zoo with alex,gen,germ... OH WELL (:
feeling happy,
to think that i was feeling emo and thinking of you.
before i begin wondering
when i'll think of you too.
dancin' @ 10:24 PM
Monday, April 23, 2007
and i lift my hands
and pray,
to be only yours.
i nearly teared out my hair today during my p2 tuition! SHE'S A MANACE! grrrrs. anyways i was being helpful today (:
i helped my bro with his craftwork! note, it's HELP. he drew himself and yay, masterpiece!
and i helped save my cousin by giving him a 10minute intensive art brainstorm for his Olevel piece.
my darling came back to sch today (: cute lil boy with dimples! wohoo!
j'e: "huh? you fell for them? i thought you...*****.. you mean the kids out-charmed them?"
WELLS, YES.
but im a bad girl because i love them all the same ((:
the buru trip was amazing (: it's amazing how God let's us, the leaders, just gel together in like, 1plus day? after day1, morning we were strangers, we ended up going crazy and jacking each other by evening ((: GREATNESS. it was cool getting to know people from the other churches, and sharing our captains ball experience (: like...
oh, i heard this church slacks and win...
oh, haha his church??
(charges to ask him)
i thankGod for the chance to reach out to buru.. and to teach the kids english! (: they're ADORABLE (: and it's just this simple friendship with them that you rarely find nowadays. this simple trust for each other..
sometimes, maybe it's better to be ignorant and drift from the rest of the world,
that is mainly polluted.
i can never forget the skies,
holding up a fabric filled with zillion stars* ((:
pictures from buru up tomorrow. and unfortunately, my catchup-with-people pics were deleted :( so i need to takemore shots soon.
my sentimental side is acting up on me again. and i suddenly miss times in cj.. cj friends... cj madness... everything! grrr. short jc life :(
JOCE, i simply cant wait. here missing you. you know why that's censored ((:
what can i do to make you mine.
fallen so hard, so fast,
this time
dancin' @ 10:03 PM
Saturday, April 21, 2007
save tonight,
and fight the break of dawn
come tomorrow
tomorrow i'll be gone.
i'll be going off for awhile!
going buru indonesia for missiontrip recees... a leader thing. and i think it'll be good to feedback to my team as well. be back by sun! tp, you never come along!! blehhh :( i'll miss yf! and yf will miss me. (yf is youth fellowship by the way)
since i didnt have work today,
i went acs (pri) today with my grandma to visit my bro during his break (: he was just as thrilled to see me as i was thrilled to see him! and met his cute friends! smaller sized than him. watching them lil kids... strike me that they have to be really independent like that... some of the young ones are just so blur.. so small... can even get bullied by the big ones!
as i see them, i tried to recall my pri1 in mg... lol. but i think it's the time when you really have to takecare of yourself! oh man, next time if i have a kid... i will go to sch to make sure he's okay!(: cool mummy! haha
"weijern is my bestfriend!" -lucas (bro's friend)
"hey guys, i present to you my da jie" -weijern
jonny and muggingpartner are back from camp! SO EXCITING! police get to go back earlier! i want to see their hair or botakhead. hot jonny says that we should all meet up! i hope i'll be back just in time on sun. YAYYYYY ((: (hyperventilates again cause it's jonny)
muggingpartner, stop disappearing now when youre appearing k
Dear God, PLEASE protect us, protect the team. you leadeth me. and strengthen us, let us be ready for any spiritual fight up ahead. thank you for you are faithful (:
in Jesus name,
Amen
dancin' @ 12:27 AM
Thursday, April 19, 2007
elena's activities circle
kindergarten/driving/tuitioning/lazing at home <(-(..)-)>zZz/GAMING?/catching up/munchins ((:
anyways, I LOVE MY JOB! shucks. i love kids and kids love me! *laughs to herself* they're SO adorable. youre just steps from heaven, whenever they greet you with their sunshine smileeee (: and sooner or later, you start acting like them. playing catching... saying 'WAHHH' to planes that fly across... playing mahsuk.. jumps and hops ard! feels good to be a kid (:
annn-yway, news coming from ns camps are somewhat the same... widespread monotony as they march through their daily drills and as everything just becomes repetitive. i got new from HOT JONNY (hyperventilates excitedly) and he says, that he hates marching. (LOL) and that he misses everyone (: jonny, the kids miss you dude. and sherman's still feeling sian when he can see jonny all the time? haha.
uni updates! ntu faculty test results will only be out after may! and just went for smu business interview a few days back!! and i met.... alicia, brendanmok, pinks, freda and cj ppl there (: was definately outspoken... but analytical? wells, the prof was staring at me when he asked for extra opinion and i was too freaked out at the moment to speak.(oops!) and while writing my essay, i see brendan's car pencilcase! ((: LOVES CARS that bugger. and we went to pinks shop! GOSH, the clothes are GORGEOUS! i MUST go there and try out the clothes beyond my expenses (: chats with brendan on the cab are always awesome (:
and SOON, I AM GOING TO MEET JOCE CHAN. who has a job ((: girl, we need to have our endless talks again! and catch up.. lets go pinks shop! heehee.
still,
confused. GAHH
all i know is that,
im still pretty fine when you or you are not around. which is great! time flies when i needed it to (: fast enough to keep me oblivious about the missing puzzle pieces of you or you in my life. problem is.. it is you or you? cause it has to be just one you.
when will i start to make sense.
dancin' @ 8:38 PM
Friday, April 13, 2007
i think about you baby,
and i dream about you all the time
it gets hard but it wont take my love.
male EXODUS
thurs, fri: gareth, eddybirdyboy, willie bro, xiaoan, son son, saw
finally by this week, the guy population have officially shrunk and will stay like this for awhile. they're all wiped out! and away in ARMY. a place that can possibly and hopefully change them evil buggers into good gentlemen.
and their reactions to their cool haircut was just hilarious!
hun thinks that he looks funny and weird! sherm was abit sian that it's all gone. yeow felt like he was super exposed :D eddybirdboy was just freaking out and about to faint by the lost of hair.. and gareth was emoing and thinking that it'll never grow back!
haha. this bunch of people are the most VEIN POKS around, and obviously they have been surveying their hair in front of the mirror for at least 10times a day. being paraniod and all!! emo emo.
yay, havent entered extreme depression and my job probably helped! this friday was particularly cheerful as i greeted one of my cute kids first thing in the morning (: little n1s cuddling up to me.. playing 'mah suk' with them again! now that im enjoying it and a huge ponytail girl saying 'im so full already' in a high pitched voice, holding her tummy. she said IM HOT! (more like i tricked her into it) helping them tie hair.. (this boy has same leg calves as me!)
the weird thing is, whenever i ask them to SMILE*, they do ANYHING other then smiling! either screaming into your face, making funny face. look angry.. really cute ((:
and ofcourse, sitting by them until their parents came (:
plus, ive passed STAGE1 of driving! BEAMS :D
and harrypotter is waiting for me.
reminder to all, pls keep the ns kia-s in prayer ya. God will work amazing strengths through them! (:
something's telling me that it'll
JUST be you,
all of my life.
dancin' @ 11:25 PM
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
.
.
Two years later
he's still on my mind
Someday we'll know
Why I wasn't meant for you...
I'm speeding by the place that I met you for the 97th time,
tonight
how disturbing can it be:
she hates the idea of them
but over and over again, she falls back
because when they are together,
she wished moments with him
could last forever
me and germaine were whining about ns this morning. "ns robs me of my friends" agreed. we dont even want to think abt msn man. comes a time when you realised that youre so old that your friends are going into ns already! HOPEFULLY, turning into men. and in a few days, it just took some friends away.. :((
finally,
it's a time when i appreciate the existance of girlfriends,
without those NAUGHTY NOISY buggers around.
maybe this is when heaven begins,
a period free from all the jacking, 'bully'ing, shouting..
(esp when they are either waiting to give their heads a new makeover or still in there since jan. )
is it a happy thing?
well,
it SUCKS so far :(
EMO.
i tried to be emo on the toy shelves as me and gabriel went vivo today to shop for his mum's gift and spent a hell load of time in toys r us! he's one deprived child! but it was ultra fun going back to toys and stuff! brings back memories today in kindergarten, when i was overseeing boys playing lego and girls playing 'mah suk'
line of the day that made me smile...
a boy told his brother: "youre my bestest brother in the whole world" AWW.
GAHHHHH.
i dont like the feeling of having less people around me.
or being CONFUSED about love.
One day I'll go
Dancing on the moon...
Someday you'll know
That I was the one for you...
dancin' @ 11:17 PM
Monday, April 09, 2007
i am SO TIRED by the travelling today.
note: adm video http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cld2SikODXc
today the kids had easter celebration and boy, was it tiring!! lols. it feels like a mini orientation, when i was explaining the games at the stations to the kids (: even though it SO DARN TIRING trying to organise them and get them going... but when you hear them sing and see them smile, makes you feel like heaven instead (:
and again, on my way to hun's place, im bound to drop off wrongly and congrats, elena did! hun doesnt know his house is the blue, purple, greenish one! and im pretty sure i have animal-affinity cause the twinie doggies were like chasing me around the table licking and licking but they're so cute! but thanks for the times ya, hun tocks and jan. till we meet again!
and i owe a HUGE APOLOGY to dearest muggingpartner. sherman ho! hoei.. so sorry ya, but ultimately chuckles still travelled to serangoon ok! super far, btw! i was like in another country on its own cause im completely LOST in that place. but i still made it there! mission accomplished! ((: and pls dont die inside okay! even without grenade, it can be dangerous too!
felt like doing visitation. lol.
today, the time has come for darcy, corn, kevinkong, bennybooboo, nic ho
TOMORROW (tues),
sherm, hun, jonny, markp, engyeow meets their destiny!
on my long draggy bustrip home, thinking about closefriends leaving... makes me super emo. so channelled all my thoughts to harrypotter, before bro j'e called. even if they're going in for like 2weeks confinement, it feels like they're not coming back!
but that's the way it is, we exaggerate about it all the time! (:
and by the end of this week, no. of ppl online in msn is gonna drop drastically cause only the guys go online usually. lolol.
people,
youre always the ones telling ppl to takecare
when you need more taking care of.
PLS TAKECARE and GOD BLESS ((:
dancin' @ 10:44 PM
because He lives,
I can face tomorrow
because He lives,
all fear is gone!
PICS from meetups --- UP SOON!
my ADM video on youtube (: --http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cld2SikODXc
friday:
i did sth extraordinary at night.....
why did i went all the way to the cathay, to randomly pass some paints to muggingpartner, met some judokas, then led myself into a scary movie, came out terrified, ending up freaking out every night. WHY! oh and sherm slept during the movie. SIAN.
haha. cause im nice and i do anything k ((:
saturday: FACULTY TEST! hahas. i met karen, after so long! and some other cj people (: iggy cheat my feelings! and i dont wish to say anything else abt it, just waiting for God to lead. led my toughest worship session during the buru meeting. (i think the sherman there in the meeting was rather pleasing to the eye :D) and then we went to spore bible college at night to eat with our teacher and played a whacky game of tabletennis! lydia, laughs!!
"please shift your trash as you shift your sittings" (eugene wants to take yeow as trash along)
sunday: EASTER DAY ((:
we had ALOT of laughs after church. yeow decided to reach church super early today cause he wanted to create a good ending impression. lol. after church, my class went out (: and i told gareth and yeow to PLS come out of ns as MEN, and not kids snatching 10bucks! x)
after giving them a parting gift,
i KNEW that they were going to compare paperbags, concluding that theirs is for the cool and handsome. they're so close, but always trying to argue with each other!!
yeow is determined to come out of ns with 8pacs and help auntyveron boost some sales at her cakeshop using his abs. LOL. yeow's such a comedian! and he said that gareth is like one lump of nothing! lol. so then we ambled our way by bus to taka! taking SUPER LONG to settle down to a place to eat! we went EVERYWHERE! and that's cause we love malcolm who didnt wanted to eat pepperlunch. yeow and gareth didnt treat!
sharing a table with 3guys is BAD!
guy #1: gareth yeo. big mouth monster, potential "ghost" in camp, places chunks of meat on the stove and then GETS TOO LAZY TO FLIP HIS MEAT! throws everything into the pot! selfish enough to cook one meat at one time!
guy#2: malcolm ho. trashbin, we dumps everything at him but he's so picky! only useful at peeling prawns, talking crap WITHOUT cooking much. gave me 'food'
guy #3: joshua. big eaters, takes your cooked meat away!!
so i was MAID/MUM/TRASHBIN. (better than toilet cleaner yeow)
malcolm:"no shit! my mum's not that ugly!" elena: "i'm so used to this..."
at anna and yeow's table, they were trying to kill gareth with their food! experimenting all their food! LOLOLOL. and yeow uses his ladle for everything!
marc, keith randomly suans me about driving -.-"
SUCH FUN! :D
yeow's ultimate line today: "if i was a girl, i'll love myself!"
that's so him! my goodness! and his imaginary girlfriend.
malcolm's line: "joshua, can i call you jo?" (joshua backs away)
elena's GOOD line: "malcolm, what is this? this-is-a-bowl! B-O-W-L! get it?"
anna's line: "tum-pui! HAHAHAHHA"
serena's line: "i want more PRAWNS!"
when i was calling hun, they thought that he was my imaginary friend?? haha. and they took up hun's idea of having me as maid -.-" and they went to watch scary movie! GARETH PSK! he said he really wanted to accompany me. gahhh! boy! try on my jacket! haha.
and then, i went to meet hun and sean lee! sean came calling me "aunty, el fei fei!" and they BOTH tried to explain how they braved everything to meet me. jacked till siao. mrbean movie was funny! (: but quite typical i guess. with the 2monkeys showing me similarities btwn me and mrbean. sadly, i thought i looked more like the chicken! smart hun knew there were hidden clip after credits. after the movie, WE REALISED HUN'S A GIRL, and that I'M ENLISTING SATURDAY. jack jack jack. we had such fun amidst the suaning-elena-part. it sucks when there's 2guys that are tall enough to make you hit into their elbow! armpit-scrubber.... LOL.
all the MANtalking. one is my buddy, one is my bestfriend. and they both pushed me to the road! AHHH. lols.
as the mad day comes to an end, to the ns kias... hey, pls takecare alright.
dancin' @ 1:13 AM
Friday, April 06, 2007
唯有谁能把你抢离我手套
你是我的专属天使
为我能独占
唯有谁能取代你在我心上
COUGHING.sneezing.shivering.COUGHING.sneezing.shivering
when will it end?
and now that the kids are telling me more and more things about their little lives, i have to pick up the skill of understanding preschooler's language and speak that way too. sometimes, i say sth that i think is funny but then they just stare at me. but i do learn and i know only certains things would make them laugh.. like making yourself stupid-looking. HAHA.
im feeling extra emo this mourndy thurs and round of good friday... maybe it's a time when you know when to sat aside lighthearted things.. and focus on things that weights emotionally heavier. THANKS JESUS, for dying for me. and i really want to do ANYTHING that can glorify your Name and make You smile from above.
the glory of His love.
today,
i had driving and i drove to sunset way! i met nessabay (: but then i was late, and gareth had a good laugh! he was with my brother and cousin when i got there. my brother told him in a very fake way that he'll miss gareth and his tuitions with him. lol. and im surprised at how close gar is twith my cousin! but then, it was funny seeing him stuff like 5 of my grandma's pohpiahs in 15minutes and then, teaching him how to make good-quality pohpiahs.. but obviously to him, it's the quantity that satisfies his gigantic mouth.
hey, thanks for letting me tell the whole world to you.. and at the same time, keep part of yours forbidden, just feel that way i guess.
no matter how crazy it sounds,
ya i guess
i still do.
there's always something getting in the way,
it's not me,
it's you.
finally, here comes the emotional shower
dancin' @ 1:01 AM
Wednesday, April 04, 2007
i am about to COUGH MY LUNGS OUT.
oh darn, it's the worst cough that ive had since primary school! oh shucks. but im just happy that MORE KIDS are remembering my name! (: they say all the funniest things and get angry over the simpliest problems! how cute. i need to settle disputes about who push who, who shout at who... and they get amused by the same spider on the tree everyday! (:
a girl is still calling me "elewina" but i like it (:
and good friday is coming. i think i shared it last year, that it doesnt take an occassion to remind us of God's love for us when He gave us Christ for our salvation... but prompts us that to remind ourselves of this abundant love everyday! and always remember Christ's being blameless on the cross, just for us.
darling of heaven crucified.
tomorrow, meeting hun buddy, janice, eileen *BEAMS* :)) and then rushing back for tuition with gareth and brother before going church for service. let's hope that the late thing isnt still clinging onto gareth.
PS, msg to hannah.. girl, i have things to tell you. stand by me babe.
not yet.
dancin' @ 11:04 PM
Sunday, April 01, 2007
my debut art, media, design video. ENJOY!
HAPPY APRIL FOOL'S DAY!
the april fools thing is not getting to me this yr... after realising it was april fools, the day was half gone and i spent the rest of the day playing jokes with my lil brother. and his jokes are super badddd... but i just played along with that chubby fella (: after hanging up my art things, im back to bumming ard at home when there's no work! and ive resorted to doing sth more useful like reading harrypotter!
elena: i want your FORGE of the pheonix
tp: HUH?
anyways, i luuve weekends!! always feels like heaven hanging ard church people ((: we went to an oldfolks home and felt so good after that, knowing that you shared some warmth with people who really need them.
with that funky church bunch, it's pretty much the same stuff we do ever since 10years ago...
laughs,
smiles,
SUANING,
eating good food (:
yayy. tp girltalked with me on the way home on 61! yay. the days of the 61 gang (: i really enjoyed talking to him about random, emo stuffs and he gives the most enthusiastic remarks! and there was a miracle! i was cleaning my study table, FIRST TIME IN 2YEARS and i accidentally knocked over the bottle tp gave for christmas 3years ago, and IT DIDNT BREAK!
we know it sounds kiddish, but FRIENDS FOREVER! (((: so happy you came ta!
MOMENT of the weekend:
scenerio: we were going for dinner after yf, and i realised yeow wasnt going with us! which was really rare, esp when he was going into ns soon.....
elena: YEOW! do you know next week would be the last time you'll be eating dinner with us after yf?
(yeow just stunned there, froze with big eyes... silenceeee and everyone stares at him)
yeow (still not moving): im trying to CRY....
-more silence-
yeow ( STILL not moving): okay, HELP ME.
(joyce dashes to dip water on his eyes)
yeow sings wo nan guo: wo nan guo de shi fang qi ni, fang qi de mong...
(while singing, joyce was just having fun dipping water that she just POURED the water on him!)
yeow: WHAT???? (overdramatic)
the overdramatic and usual daring-to-strip pose
without gareth around, he was trying to show he has the biggest muscles of all. LOLOL
you and i
cannot hide
the love we feel inside
the words we need to say
ARGH.
i think yeow's funny behaviour still cannot push away the emo going on inside me. all along, i dont know how to feel... and there's no point in cracking my brain to figure out what kind of feeling should be right. i guess i'll only know when emo-ness starts kicking in, when youre gone. if only we could live twice ya.
dancin' @ 9:57 PM