Wednesday, November 15, 2006
and tonight i walk through an empty street
with my shadow stretching in front of me
when my lonely thoughts meet my lonely feet.
and cold reminds me that i
chosen this life.
[currently playing]get another boyfriend
chuckles has found another song to add on the the collection of 'dumping and moving along' music list! YAY. the negativity towards love. HAHA. backstreet... check it out! :)))
Decided to get my ass out of the house and BACK to school today.
away from distractions. wells, markp assumed that the sch belonged to the econs people today. bleh. still, sat and studied with tocks. bitchy hun doesnt fail to exhibit his socks to everyone! still dare to put them near me. HOW GROSS! (recalls the time when i smelt it. eee)
bumped into jaredkong! ive not seen you for awhile already, big one! :D hahas. he look pretty stressed up. wells, lil joce came to brighten up his day! :)) silly girl fell off her chair and gave xiaoan the opportunity to jack her. stupid boys. so then, i told them that i'll be flying off right after my bio paper on thurs! they were shocked at first but fast enough to seize the chance to jack me!
chuckles: im flying off to penang on the day of ya last lit paper!
jared: so when will you be back.
chuckles: prob going for twodays and i'll be back!
jared: means tt you wont be away FOR GOOD?
DAMNN!
xiaoan: why not you just left and come back on april14th! (day of enlistment)
joce laughed.
STUPID BOYS.
jared and joce were educating me about how earthquakes are formed from the shifting of the earth's plates when sherman came along thinking that he's real tight with jared. the question is whether the bond btwn sji boys will remain tight even when girls start invading their lives! but knowing them, they'll stay true to sji aye! hahaa. joce and i saw some "foreign body" in our canteen when it was actually some sji foreign students! and OFCOURSE, we got jacked back about our sec schools. sigghhh. whats with you ppl and mg girls? GAHH. sherman just comes along to show off his skills at jacking me! and yes, the famous line that jared said a few months back.
chuckles, why are you so noisy!
LOL.
RETARD! haha.
so then, there comes the time when all the econs people go up for their exams! this time, i was the only one not taking the paper and once again, i felt all MOTHERLY and running up to wish them all the best for the paper. joce just laughed when i said.."my kids are all grown up and going for their papers! AH! sobs!" LOL. but was glad that i was personally there wishing them (: ele, you'll do fine alright! rem to always smile (: because your smile lights up my day. with exception to some of them pointing finger at me. GAH.
the noise from the econs crowd died down as i returned to my mcqs. it wasnt long before muggingpartner came along to invite me to the lib! how nice until i realised that HE JUST WANTED MY IPOD! the same old sherman that deserves coal. haha. being nice, i DID went to the lib! (: but sherman did come along to helped me with a chem question! YAYY. like old times ah. hahahhaaha. stupid faces and all! obsessed with lips of an angel.. calling me fatty. but still, just like old times, he doesnt fail to pangseh me as he went off to slack!! but it's rather understandable.. how shag one can be after a demanding paper! so then, muggingbuddy, 2more days to chem and it'll be through for good! (:
somehow, you really want all these to be over. YET, you dont want to let them go knowing tt there comes the time when all the crazy moments, along with the studying, will seize as well. i know i'll miss the times studying tog with friends.
nothing beats the joy you have.. knowing that friends are there to make studying more tolerable and even more enjoyable.
moving to ipod music, enduring their singing, smiling to each other before turning back to our work, rushing back for nightstudy, staying sticky and dirty at the end of the day or just encouraging each other
i'll miss the moments really.
but time flies... and know you cant study with them FOREVER. but you can always keep the friendships. (:
soon, econs people come running down REJOICING from their liberation! esp the non-chem paper. CONGRATS to iggy, edwin, hafiz, keerthi, jon ong, markchia for completing your As! keerthi was tearing his lecturenotes away and joce unleashed her violent side as she helped him! HAHA. went off the starbucks with the lit and hist people! whereas, other sciencers are off to PARTY! hun and his gang went off to dota as they smiled widely. BLEH. all so happy and celebrating! GO OKAY. go play for me. (tries to ignore them as they try to act really happy and FREE) YES EDWIN, alot of time!
after a nice dinner looking at joce gobble up food and jared stopping her, we went to starbucks! they're really a lovely pair! :))) was pretty distracted at starbucks after completing my 4th mcq paper of the day! sat ard and did some talking! I LOVE TO TALK! esp with people with interesting and engaging views abt certain things. so then, graham markyang and i were talking about relationships! ((: it was a good talk.
being youths.
a time when we're just confused about what we want. when you TRY to handle freedom. when commitment is still undefined. when we rush into things... and end them abruptly when you know it's not want you want.
you can find it cruel that someone can just stop loving when you still have the love going but this is LIFE.
through little meaningful experiences will we learn to see the fine line between commiting and being too possessive and find the limit between preserving our old self and going to the extent of changing yourself for another person.
love is subjective. love is BLIND. it is after everything is over, when you can probably sit back to think about what exactly happened..
whether you were the fool, or the jerk..
javier who looks like lin jj (a compliment you said!) came along to ask abt chem and bio! lol. chunky (how jared calls him, nicks that stay with you FOR LIFE!) takes the same combi as me. seems like things are going pretty well for sa's side! COMPETITION. he reminded me to start studying bio :S monday.... i need to get all the biological juices flowing! and assimilate all the sexual repro info into my head! we both agreed that sex for plants is freaking BORING. LOLOL.
OKAY! 3 more papers.
go girl. chem and bio.
Just go get on with your life
Stop Acting like you've given up
so just hang up the phone,
cause youre probably better alone.
dancin' @ 10:51 PM