Stepping on the dance floor it's me and you*

Thursday, October 26, 2006

so not worth it. FOCUS.

i think in any minute now,
mugging partner will COME AFTER me for leaving an entry here when it's actually 6days to our first paper!

but i cant help but to spill some of my crap here. first of all, to everyone! 6days left so make GOOD USE out of it! make everyday meaningful and not wasted :D

to mugging partner: SUPERMAN. studying can be a bore but you made studying more exciting actually due to your pigface and retarded ways. hahah actually you have shown me your kindness amidst all the MEAN things you always spill out. so thanks so much! it had been great being muggingbuddies with you
thanks for being there and not there :D

through all the complications.
the bittersweet feelings.
the love and hate.
the sadness.
the ANGER.
the happiness that i thought existed.
the false hope that things will turn out the way i want it to be.
im actually happy that im liberated from them. freed from the mess that i sank into. and still surviving. never will i ever try to fall into such complications again.
or rather, im scared to love again...

what i need now:
1) a tub of ben&jerry's icecream to make myself FAT.
2) a long bath to cry it out
3) ALOT of work to drown myself with just work (a good thing)
4) MANY new eyecandies.

but chuckles is happy to have people standing by her and telling her to BE STRONG! and carry on!! thanks for psychoing me to be happy and making me smile. you guys made me laugh even with the worst kind of jokes (claudio's jokes) HAHA. thanks for talking it through with me and even letting me see both sides of the coin (: for all the care and guidance now and the days to come. really, thanks for being there for me. and STILL bother to be mean. but that's what makes them friends of chuckles. to all that matters to me, THANKS.

REMINDER TO SELF:
2) wake up your idea (6days left)
3) STOP THE EMO SHIT.
4) focus. forget about it. LET IT GO
5)STUDY AND CHIONG ALL THE WAY.

I JUST NEED SOMEONE TO LOVE ME. just me.
but now is not the time.

sorry but chuckles is going to be selfish.
my love will only be given to one tt looks in one direction.
anybody else, do NOT deserve it.
(it's only natural to say so, in fact)

love is all about being faithful anyway.

LET YOU GO
-Ashley Parker Angel

Broken promises
But you don't really mind
It's not the first time and you know it
Don't you know
Tell me why it is you only smile inside
But when you break me into nothing Don't you know
It's not like I haven't tried over and over again
Stupid fights, wrong or right
Goodbye

I remember when you came with me that night
We said forever, that you would never let me go
But here I am again
With nothing left inside
Know I don't wanna
But I gotta let you go

You're the one mistake I really didn't mind
So beautiful, unmerciful
It took me down
Too little and too late
See now I know your kind
You fake it easy just to please me
Don't you know
It's not like we haven't tried over and over again
Sleepless nights, wrong or right
Goodbye

dancin' @ 11:08 PM